Memory

Have you ever noticed how we tend to forget moments. My kids are still very little yet, I seem to have already forgotten a lot of things. Thankfully I try to write a lot down and keep track of some milestones. But mostly the things that I have kept close track of are all the firsts. And not that those aren't important. But for example when was the last day that I had to push Emma on the swing because she didn't know how to do it herself? When was the last time I was able to rock any of my babies to sleep. Now they are too big and squirmy and require doing that on their own without the comfort of mommy. The last time I nursed them or gave them a bottle? And right now Emma has pretty much mastered tying her own shoes. Yes, on occasion she needs me to double knot or help a little but someday I am going to look back and say "hey, when did she stop needing me for that?"
So a few days ago when Emma asked me to carry her I did and the entire time I tried burning that moment into my mind because in all honesty the girl is almost as tall as me (haha funny, yes, its not that tall I KNOW!!) But... that's probably the last time it will happen. She is just getting to big. And last night since Brennon failed to take a nap again, and was completely exhausted he let me snuggle next to him my cheek next to his, my arms wrapped around him as I watched his big brown eyes slowly drift closed. And every night as I tuck my little Addy Joy into bed all snuggled up on my shoulder holding her blanky close, sucking her thumb intently I try hard to not forget what that feels like. Because all to soon she won't be needing that goodnight snuggle with mommy.